Does it matter if it is good or not????

Poncho:

It always happens, right before my eyes. I can't stop it. I can't control it. It is just that all of the sudden it has completely changed. Sometimes it is big, sometimes it is small. Sometimes it is for the better and sometimes it is for the worse. Everyday I deal with it, some days are easier than others. Some days I can understand what is going on, while there are others where I have no clue of what just happened. Everything changes. My life goes in one direction to the next. Yesterday it was wonderful, today it was dull, tomorrow it may be exhausting, exhilarating, or depressing.

I don't understand why we must endure the rapid fluxuations of life. All I want is to have a purpose. Why are we here? Why must we die? What should we come to enjoy, except, understand? Basically, all that I am saying is what if nothing is expected out of life? What if it just is, always has been, and always will be? We are merely just products of a history of biological development. Maybe we just are.

All that I know is that some days just seem to put me in a mood that makes me feel like everything that I do in my life is just pointless because there is no point. Just existing is enough. Why do more than that when it does not seem necessary???

Does anyone else find it weird that I write to my fish?

-DJ