Going to die, Going to die, going to die, going to die...

Poncho:

Nothing seems to change. Yet nothing is the same. I have lost my life, the past two years. Can you save me? The answers always no. Hidden in the pity of my own fears. I love but fear. Stronger now then ever before. I am dying to see what could never be. I want you so but others intervine.

I stare upon these 26 letters, looking for a way to telll her how I feel. Nothing can be found, my thoughts and feelings are beyond words. Once again i am bound by my ignorance. I am losing my self awareness. I try to forget but she invades my dreams. Always has she resided. Always and now its beyond what i can bare.


O pearl of all that is beautiful, destroy this mind with your angelic ways. I cant write anymore, love so great that life is fufilled. For with you shall we die, but without the thought of existing will always be. To chose would be selfish, to fulfill our passions would be bliss. Enjoy nothing, dream everything.

-Evad

We exist only to...

Poncho:

To grow only to die. To love only to hate. The shutters are locked, I am trapped within. Let me see, I just want to see. Why have they done this to me? Why do I want more than to just be? I wish upon me the same fate as that of which has befallen you.

To dream only to awake. To see only to be blind. What is really beyond our window, our censored view of perception? What we may find will not be what we search for. Sorrow, dissapointment, self realization can only engulf our senses before we will truely understand.

To die only to live. To cry only to rejoice. I see a world that wants nothing but sadness. I see a world that expects more than what it is. I see the people who want nothing more than what they dont have. I see selfishness, I see jealousy, I see hunger, I see corruption, I see nothing, I see a lost soul of a world without you.

-Evad