Was this meant to be?

There has always been one thing that has always puzzled me a little bit. That thing is free will. Is it really possible that everything is already laid out before us? As we live in the moment, it seems to be that we do have the choice. I know that I believe that I am control of everything I do but is this merely an illusion? I always try to figure it out but I can never come to any logical explanation of if we do have free will or if we don't. It is the past that makes free will so hard figure out. I mean you can't change the past. You have already made a choice and you can't change that. So if we were able to travel back in our past, wouldn't we just do the same thing that already has happened since it has already happened? By traveling in the past, I don't mean any Back to the Future stuff. I am talking about jumping back to a time in your past where you are you, and you are the only you. There you would have no free will. For the future, you can only make one choice so basically there is only one way to go. What you choose is your future and if you only can make one choice there could only be one set path. I don't like that. I like to be in control of my life. I really don't know. I think I am just confusing myself more and more as I keep talking about it.